Outside the box

When road ends..
remember you don't need roads for walking.

Friendship on a Thursday!

Every time I see my friends I think of how glad I am for having them in my life. They truly give my life value and meaning. It's a treasure to have a partner in crime to throw analyses at and together trying to make sense of it. It's even greater to know that it always goes both ways. The advice, the motivation, to feel sad and to feel whole, we are always even.

Thank you for tonight Maria! Laughed to tears!

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Migraine

The inspiration to write  flew when the migraine arrived. Instead I'll post a few pictures from last weekend. C' came home from LDN and we spent almost the whole Saturday with my family outside. We found this old ruin by the road. When sun shine through, it created such a beautiful shadow act! Spring was definitely in the air. One of those weekends when you like to press repeat over and over again....

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In the 1900s

Traveling by train must be the next best way of traveling - after traveling by boat. I always get the feeling of living in the early 1900s though I imagine there was not as comfortable back then. Still it's cozy, relaxing and considering the circumstances - very quiet.

I'm on a train to Gothenburg in southern Sweden. It's a three hour trip from Stockholm which is too fast in my opinion. One hour more at least would be great for my mind. It's a business meeting so I'll spend the last hour preparing. Four hours meeting and three hours back. I'll work the whole train back though. Quick visit. But a nice break from the office and a great start of a very busy week.

I'll write more about my weekend another day. I had a blast. The last picture I celebrate the spring - again.

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The Bigger Picture

The bigger picture. Seems too often be, Way To Big for people. The borders are so close to the skin on some that you wonder if they see where their footsteps are heading.

Seeing the bigger picture is a challenge for most of us - but I like to believe that at least half of us practice  Things aren't always as they seem - we get proof of that everyday. Not all people fit in to the stereotypes we decide for them and people who move to another country than their own aren't automatically criminals. What you say is not always perceived as you think it is - what you hear isn't always what they said. Peculiar thing - perception.

We can't do more than listen, ask, be open minded and practice to see the bigger picture ourselves. But we do have to practice. It's such a waste of good conversations if we don't.

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My mind goes to a sweetheart that deserve happiness and being listen to. 

Sun in the eyes

There's just something with having sun in your eyes. Waking up from the cold cold winter and suddenly snow's gone, sun touch your skin and everyone is walking around easy as feathers with silly grins painted on their faces. 5 months of freezing all clothes comes off and pastelly , eastery clothes is equivalent to swedish law. In seconds people start to realise they're actually visible for other people passing them. Retail celebrates. Spring. You have to love it.

I do.

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Romme Alpin

Yesterday I went, together with my brother and his girlfriend, to a cabin a few hours up north. It was pitch black when me arrived and we woke up to a beautiful scenery the morning after- Sun rising from the lake, birds singing, no wind.

Fifteen minutes from the cabin we reached our destination - Romme Alpin - a skiing resort that is close enough to drive to for a one or two days vacation. Had the greatest day skiing with my siblings and my sisters children and husband. So much energy, sun gazing (and warming!!!), loads of adrenalin. Just love it..!

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Easter

Easter holidays - finally. I've always loved Easter. I spend a lot of time with my family just laughing, eating and appreciate each other. Love.

C's off to London tomorrow though - unfortunately. But we had a pre- Easter this morning. He made me a beautiful breakfast with strawberries, croissants and loads of love.

How do you celebrate Easter - if you do? :)

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Denna där

Every day a treasure.

Baby girl

Today is a wonderful day - I just can't believe it. My best friend became a mother of a little baby girl today at 13:54. I'm so happy for her and her family that I just can't stop smiling.

Ida - you are going to be the greatest mom. I'm so proud of you already. Both you and Alex are going to do a wonderful job as parents. I'm so excited to meet your little treasure. All love to you.

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You

CNN going BooHoo

A couple of news recently has made me furious - loosing hope for humanity.

I've talked about it for a few days now and I'm starting to loose words so I'll just post two videos below. I'll end with the amazing Swedish actress Bianca who did a powerful attack against both racism, preconceptions and women discrimination.

The first clip is from CNN who sympathises with rapists. The reporter stands there going all Boo-hoo for the poor poor boys who will be associated as rapists for the rest of their lives. The 16year old victim gets hated by the society for being ... What exactly... Oh yes - RAPED and URINATED on and NUDE pictures spread on the Internet.
But poor boys... They were such good football players and all......

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and here comes Bianca - the proof that there is - obviously - hope for humanity





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Naive

I do this every year. One sunny weekend and I put on my spring jacket, taking out the furniture on the balcony, all mittens are hidden in the closet and I ware my spring grin (endless happiness, close to seriously disturbed grin that is..).

Then - snow. For days.
So naive....


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(Still celebrating spring though...)

Don't give up on yourself

This week is about challenges. I've always said that I LOVE challenges. This week I realised... I'm such a fraud.
I love challenges that are difficult - but just as difficult that I know deep down that I'm still going to be great at it. That is NOT a challenge. But still I've been walking around feeling stupidly proud of myself. So - the wake up call..

I'm a dancer - been dancing for years. Still I'm not a great great dancer - I'm ok. I love it so I keep training training training to get REALLY good. After four years not dancing I decided to start practising ballet. Ballet is great exercise and both beautiful and good technique. But to be honest - I'm not good. That's no problem really since I don't suck... I just don't feel comfortable showing off. In fact just the thought of performing ballet makes be shiver and having day-mares... 

So.. My teacher came up to me asking: Kajsa? You will be attending the performance in a few weeks right?
My heart stopped. Like a skittish kitten I desperately searched in my mind for excuses and I believe I had a few successful ones. During class it's hard to look at myself in the mirror. Imagining people I don't know - or worse those I do know- watching me dance is a great chuck up reflex for me..

I managed to escape but then it hit me. My image of myself as a brave, challenging and real tough woman was totally crushed. I felt so ashamed for myself. When something so uncomfortable and scary came up I screamed and ran in the other direction... More than scared I felt disappointed. 

So I'm in. I am going to do this damn show. I will be scared as hell doing something that is way beyond my comfort zone. And damn what a proud dancer who will walk out if there when show's over.

This is a tiny little dance show - I know. But there are so many things that can scare the hell out of us. But we can not let them defeat us. Always challenge - deep breath. I rather fail than not even give it a try, cuz then I'll never develop and never, for real, succeed.


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Denna Där

Spring spring spring..

Such a wonderful weekend. Quality time with C' just talking, breathing and enjoy each others company. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. The snow is slowly disappearing from the ground and as always I'm naive enough to decide that today is the day for spring. Probably it will snow for days from tomorrow . but still. It was spring this weekend at least and I saw buds on the ground.. flowers reaching for the sky - LOVE IT!!!!

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Clarion Sign

Friday - a beautiful and sunny friday. Started with a meeting at the Clarion Sign Hotel. I remembered that I actually never have been to a hotel in Stockholm before- one time on the country side but not ever in a Swedish city. Clarion Sign was absolutely beautiful- but I will probably never afford living there.
It was great getting a tour though when finishing the meeting. Seeing the spa, the rooms and the cool restaurant!

Waiting for C' coming home from skiing vacation - bastard ;) first - sushi, whine and candles.


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Dear Miss.. miss.. miss.. Sir!

Since I talk a lot in Swedish during the day I've decided to write in English  Mostly for practice actually, as well as matching my instagram language if someone happened to follow me to here.. you never know.

I've had quality time with my self all week - not really as if I've noticed yet, the days seem to have disappeared before I could catch them. But, obviously I have, and tonight is the only time I actually could feel it - embrace it. It's nice. I run around in my apartment singing from the soundtrack of the Nashville tv series (n e v e r  g e t  t i r e d), cooked a lovely dinner for myself and just remembering who I am when I'm not on the run. Still I really look forward to hug my gorgeous man when he gets home tomorrow.. 

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Denna Där

Awaken to Spring

Burst out words hidden under the cold

Fragile fingers making love to string

Unwrap those doubts you once fold

Through a window sun awake me to spring

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Denna Där

Soon!

Dagarna går sannerligen i ett. Dagarna på praktiken är långa - ändå känns det som dagarna försvinner. En kombination av att det är är mycket och riktigt roligt antar jag. Nog om det.

Jag träffade min Ida idag - min väldigt gravida Ida. Bebis kan komma precis när som helst, jag hoppades på vår fika men fick hålla till godo med att känna en liten fot genom magen. Är mycket är glad över det förstås! Fick otroligt mycket positiv energi av vår lilla fika och kände hur lyckligt lottad jag är som har sådana människor som Ida runt omkring mig. Vänner är verkligen något som fler borde värna som guld.

Jag har ju börjat dansa Pole - det är så vansinnigt roligt (läs även: jobbigt). Kursen slutade förra veckan men jag kan omöjligt få nog, så nästa vecka startar nästa vända (vi ska bokstavligt vända oss uppochned då är det tänkt). Det känns otrolig peppande med så snabb utveckling, det är grym träning! 

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Denna Där

Nashville

Hamnade i influensa. Vilken grej. Jag blev direkt påmind att jag faktiskt aldrig haft feber i vuxen ålder - förän i tisdags. Jag sitter på jobbet och tokfryser, vilket inte är konstigt då det alltid är konstig temperatur i byggnaden. Men detta var väl lite väl. Sedan bränner det plötsligt i hela kroppen, och jag får kämpa för att kunna andas normalt. Det låter ju nästan som jag blev plötsligt döende - mesigt? Jo. Jag är beredd att hålla med. Jag kände mig som en riktig barnrumpa när jag staplade hem, men usch så dåligt jag mådde. Sedan låg jag i horisontalläge veckan ut. Under denna vecka fik jag en ny förälskelse (det är inte ju mycket annat att hitt på när man är liggande...) : NASHVILLE!

Vilken fantastisk serie som bara pumpar ut härlig musik! Jag blev helt såld och lyssnar redan på alla låtar på Youtube och lär mig dem på gitarren. Riktigt feelgood. Denna nedan får ju en att... köra bil. Riktig härlig köra-bil-låt. - eller hur? Se vad lite influensa kan göra. Är lycklig.

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